Do you want "it" or the idea of "it"?

I get on these crazy kicks sometimes. I have a list of things I think would be amazing. For example I really really thought I wanted to live in Alaska. I loved the idea of small little towns where everyone minds their own business unless you need help and then they all come together as a community and sing Kumbaya.

Or.... Maine where there are these tiny little towns where everyone knows everyone. They ride their bikes around town and they sail on windy days. The have cool community festivals and great accents.

Or.... In the mountains where there are these tiny little mountain towns where everyone goes to a community church and takes care of each other.

Most of my crazy ideas either come from books or TV. Truth is I like having places to shop so while I am fine with a small town it needs to be close to a mall. I don't like to ride bikes or walk I am lazy and I want to drive. It gets really cold in Alaska and Maine and Ohio has taught me I am not a big fan of snow. I hate to drive on icky snowy roads in the winter especially mountain ones.

When I come up with some crazy idea Dan says to me "Do you want to live in Alaska or do you just like the idea of living in Alaska?" or "Do you really want another dog or do you just like the idea of having another dog?" and usually he is right I just like the idea of things.

So here is the latest idea I have (okay this one has been hanging around for awhile but still it is the one I haven't given up on yet) I really want a goat farm. I want to make goat milk soap and well what ever other things you do with goats. This is all The Fabulous Beekman Boys fault. I fell in love with their show when they were on Planet Green. I just downloaded this book:



But all that said I am pretty sure I don't really want goats. I don't even like to go outside so seriously a goat farm probably isn't for me. It is really hard physical work (something else I am not really a fan of) and pretty messy too.

So regardless of what I say truth be told as much as I like the idea of being a small town goat farmer I am really a mall shopping office worker. Hmm might want to think about a condo when the kids are gone instead of my cabin in the mountains huh.