Day 16 of 30 Days of Thankfulness (My Mom)

Well today is my Birthday. So I figured since she did all the work to make the day of my birth actually happen this was a good day to write about her.

I am so very Thankful for my mom. I don't know what I would do without her. There is a song that came out quite a few years ago first by Kelly Clarkson then Reba cut it. That song always makes me think of my mom but not for the reasons songs usually do. Not because I identified with the lyrics. Here they are:

Because Of You lyricsSongwriters: Hodges, David Hall; Moody, Ben; Clarkson, Kelly Brianne;I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
'Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt

Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you, I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/kelly-clarkson-lyrics/because-of-you-lyrics.html ]
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt

Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you, I am afraid

I watched you die, I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young, you should have known
Better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt

Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you, I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

For me this song makes me think of my mom and how greatful to have her. I would take a some of the lines of that song and change it just a little. I would say:

Instead of                                                              

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt

I would say:

Because of you
I don't feel like I need to stay on the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play by my own rules
So I can be me.

Okay so I am not a song writer. But what I do know is everytime I hear that song I am so sad for the person singing it and so greatful that I am me and my mom is mine.

Love you Mom!